The last year of my life has felt like a giant, long test in the area of living with uncertainty.
I’m waiting for my housing to be completed. The date has been pushed back again, and again over the last eight and a half months. And it was just pushed back again yesterday. Before these last six months it was the previous eight months it took to sell my old house that was a test.
These series of changes and uncertainties is showing me things about myself that I know are not Christ-like. It has revealed critical attitudes and lack of the fruit of the Spirit. Even if I manage to hide it from the public, my closest friends and I know it is there. I have also been disappointed with myself and some of the choices I’ve made as I’ve waited and wondered.
I am overwhelmingly grateful, however, that God does not see me that way! He is using this time to shine a light, several lights, on character defects and inviting me to change and trust Him more.
I am:
– learning to be grateful living with minimal personal belongings.
– grateful for simplicity in the freedom from things.
– seeing God’s provision in interesting and new ways.
– choosing more often to laugh and see the ridiculousness of my circumstances. Laughing at myself is terrifically healthy!
– reminded I am not in control, God is! And that is a good thing!
I get to choose between reacting to others choices negatively or I can respond in Grace, choosing to believe the best in the power of the Holy Spirit. I promise you, I need supernatural help to respond in a Christlike way! Therefore, I am especially grateful for the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life.
Instead of letting “hope deferred make my heart sick,” I can actively choose to focus on “hope fulfilled is the Tree of Life.” I am exceedingly hopeful I will be happy in my new home when I finally get in!
I am genuinely grateful for this season. It has definitely not been my plan but I can see as I go through that it is God’s plan on every level.
What uncertainty do you face? What are you grateful for in this uncertainty?
